JERITAN HATI

Assalamualaikum wbt and good morning

Alhamdulilah,, just finished my convocation ceremony yesterday..alhamdulilah tsumma alhamdullilah atas nikmat dan rahmat yg ALLAH swt kurniakan pada hambaNya yg kerdil ini. walaupun maksiat dan dosa yg menggunung DIA masih setia memberi nikmat yang tak terhingga...
terima kasih buat mak dan ayah ku yg sering mendoakan buat anaknya ini..ayah yang tak pernah merungut dalam melayan anaknya ini..pergi photostat kat kedai buku malam2, mak yang suka masak sedap2 bagi anaknya makan everytime nk hekzam..and the list goes on...huhu...


okies..thats one chapter in my life already closed..
now.....
moved on to the next one...

MY WORKING LIFE!!!

actually, corresponds to the above title tu nk story psal my woking life..
life as a  HOUSEMAN AND AS A FIRST POSTER...

allahu..air mata dah kering sekarang ni..im at the end of tunnel in surgical posting...
posting yg paling mallignant kt sini.. with high extension rate..

i had my assessment last week...questions quite easy..but im not confident as not much tyme to study and my memory is not as good during my student days...huuuu T_T..

seriusly, after dah banyak drama setelah masok alam pekerjaan ni..at the end of it..hanya ALLAH sahaja tempat kita bergantung dan meluahkan perasaan...memang kita ada kawan untuk mengadu..but its not gonna be the same...

everyday I would advise to my self "awatif, sabar banyak2 k..Allah is always be with me"...
only that self motivations words keeps me in this path...
setiap hari bangun pergi kerja pon rasa x bersemangat..

its not that  i dun love this occupations...Wallahi I LOVE being a doctor...
its the ENVIRONMENT and ur superiors...not encourage me to learn more..i dont know..huuu..
but  deep down i know its part of my weakness as well...i should push my self to the limit where i can learn more..with sooooo many housemanss lately, sgt strong competition ok!!!...

ntahlah...setiap hari selalu doa supaya ALLAH sentiasa murahkan rezeki aku untuk dapat belajar lebih..
and the nk ikhlas tu sgt kuatmujahadah nya...
paling tak best sekali is GOSSIPING is everywhere..
even me myself pon gossip pasal our own  colleagues..oh...buat DOSA lagy...
T_T...environment yg kurang solehah...

kadang2 x mengumpat tp dengar orang mengumpat..so sama jalah kan..hurmmm
macam manalah ALLAH nk tolong kita..

sedarje mengumpat psal orang lain tp masih nak buat..teruk kan..
:(

oklah..thats it...

buat yg membaca post ni..tolong doakan saya istiqamah, sentiasa kuat dan bersabar dan sentiasa dipermudahkan ALLAH dalam segala urusan inshaa ALLAH..